Semalam

Semlm aku pulang terus ke rumah lepas keje...selalu aku mesti ada destinasi lain yg akan aku tujui...tp semlm tidak...kerna mata aku dah x leh nak bukak dah...mengantuk tahap dewa seperti aku kasi tau kat kawan2 aku..eh..tp sebelum smp umah pi amik baju kat laundry dulu..hehe...bahagia rasa baju aku semua dah basuh dgn jayanya...musim2 ujan nie anto dobi la apa agi..hehe...tp tue arr nak jadikan citer...ari ujan...smp jer kat umah aku nie kelam kabut nak tutup pintu keta...tetiba...gedebang!!! aduih...sakit giler kepala aku rasa....aku terhentak kepala aku kat pintu keta...sakit yg amat2...biul jap kepala aku...huhh....aku pon tahan jer ler sakit...masuk umah kat dlm bilik tengok kat cermin, darah dah mengalir kuar dr hentakkan td la tue...sakit sgt2...siap ada parut kat tepi muka aku nie...waaaa....dah ler x der org kat umah semlm...tinggal sowang2...cepat2 aku letak minyak...tp kepala aku tetap cam sengal2 smp ler sekarang nie...hopefully aku x ilang ingatan la kan...hahaha..ok...smbg keje dulu...

Setiap satu yg terjadi ada hikmahnya..

Ermm...setiap satu yg terjadi ada hikmahnya...aku terpanggil2 untuk memikirkan tentang statement ini....mungkin kerna sesuatu yg aku terbaca semlm...huhh....1987....lama sungguh tue kan....aku tersentuh dengan bahan bacaan yg aku terbaca tue....sungguh aku x sangka....sudah selama itu...sudah hampir umur aku....aku perlu mengkaji dan meneliti hikmah yg aku dpt dari situ...semoga aku dapat terus menerima reason2 tue kat dlm kotak fikiran aku dengan rasional...seperti kata temanku "thing happens for a reason sista!! :o)"

"well...that's why..the reason...a reason...few reason and a million of reason...everything is just a reason i guess...reasoning and reason again...trying to digest the reason by myself...so that i'm not making anymore reason to make a lot of reason...now i'm confused with all the reason...and the word of reason too...ermm...1987...huhh.."

Jadi sekarang aku perlu berfikir,menggeledah,mencari dan meneliti sehingga aku mendapat jawapan yg pasti...persoalan demi persoalan menempa??? wink wink...wink..wink....

Bunga...hehe

Aku menerima sedozen bunga ros merah hari nie...ermm....aku terkejut sgt2...sebab aku x tahu siapa penghantar bunga tersebut.Ermm....ada secret admire laks erk...hehe..byk kejutan yg aku terima minggu ini...otak aku masih ligat memikirkan siapa penghantar bunga tersebut...bermain teka-teki aku....aku tanya teman2 rapatku...dan masih tidak mendapat jawapan..walaupun berteka-teki tp aku tetap bahagia...ramai yg menyayangi aku rupanya...aku perlu membuka mata melihat mereka di sekeliling aku...heboh citer bunga nie kat ofis aku...haha...lawaks doo...semua teman2 sekerja ingin mengetahui siapakah penghantar misteri itu...aku sendiri pon xtau...Bila difikir-fikirkan, biar jer ler siapa penghantar bunga itu kerna die mungkin selesa begitu kan...aku hanya akan tunggu dan lihat sahaja jer...kalo die nak reveal diri die biarlah dgn rela kan...so just enjoy the flower dan membunga2 kan hati ini...aku suka...

Moment

The wind is blowing on it's own...
Letting the flow over the trees...
The air on the wind...
Make me feel like the wind is hugging me...

Feeling so relax..
Calming my heart and my soul...
Relaxing the mind...
Making the mind blowing and soothing...

Love this moment...
Love the wind so much...
Sharing the moment with me...
Happiness on my own...

Smiling is with me...
Happiness is on my side...
My heart and soul is together now...
Enjoy my life every seconds and minutes...

Lying make me sick...

Today i received 2 news...one good one and one bad one...the bad news is just spoiling my mood today....but at least i know the truth...just don't want to hide behind the closet...ermm...why need to lie to me....as i can accept any condition as long as not lying...no lying...no lying....no lying please...i hate liar....u all are suck....suck and suck...

Iceland

Wow...wee...junior jue....hehehe...at last it's Wednesday...i'll be going to iceland today at 9p.m...
I've done with my packing last night....even the packing is a bit hassle for me as the bag is making problem for me...hahah...so funny la...nevermind i've change to the other bag...hopefully everything is okay now...so excited....la la la...Iceland here i come...first time for me to travel this far and to see the other side of the world....can't explain my excitement...so happy...i will be on the blue sky again and also will enjoy myself in iceland with my officemates...la la la...Iceland...Iceland...Iceland....i did some research on the places that we wil be visiting and the result is awesome....the places is tremendously beautiful...good ambience and everything seem so good...the spa...the blue lagoon...the perlan restaurant...the viking dinner...the golden circle...
The best part too,i'll be extending my stay in copenhagen for 2 days...exploring Copenhagen and enjoying myself there...Hope everything goes well....

But the worries is only concern on the cold weather as the weather forecast stated the temperature is about 4 degree Celsius to -4 degree Celsius...huhh...that's so cold right...hopefully my clothing can bare myself with the weather....la la la...my jacket...my longjohn....my ear muff....my shawl....my snow cap...and everything will help me warm...just don't want to think about it too much....just wanna enjoy the trip as much as i can....okay everybody....pray for my journey k...:)

My nephew concert day

I'm so impressed with my nephew Adam...he got the talent to become a penguin...hahah...he did well in his concert yesterday....it was a great concert, those little children is making a tremendous effort and make their concert day happen very well...a round of a big applause to the teachers who make it happen....but only one problem that i face when attending the concert is when the event is using mandarin as a medium language to conduct the event...haha...apa lagi...aku ngan family abg aku main agak jer la apa yg die ckp or just tanya other chinese parent yg faham...kelakar kan...hahaha...yg lain semua okay...

Otak Aku Ringan

Aku rasa otak aku ringan sungguh hari nie...mana x nyer semlm aku dah luahkan semua yg terbuku kat dlm hati...kat otak dan kat perasaan aku kat best friend aku...semua benda2 yg berserabut kat dlm otak aku selama hari nie dah berjaya diluahkan...menangis...mur

am...ketawa dan bermcm2 expression aku masa meluahkannya....tp betul la after that aku rasa otak aku ringan tul...macam satu beban besar kat dlm otak aku dah dikuarkan dengan jayanya...berkongsi masalah yg aku hadapi dari pelbagai penjuru ini dengan teman yg sgt rapat ngan aku dpt meringankan segala-galanya..Kitaorg siap berdiskusi tentang byk perkara...otak aku ligat berfikir macam mana nak atasi...macam mana nak jd better person...mcm mana nak stay happy...mcm2 agi la...coz best friend aku nie mmg sgt kenal aku dan dia paham camner aku yg sebenarnya...smp satu tahap aku ckp ngan die...kalo die lelaki la kan aku confirm kita dah leh jd couple...hahaha...sib baik aku nie straight kalo x dah couple dah ngan minah nie..hahaah...sebab...aku dah cam jumpa diri aku balik....xmo jd org yg sentiasa sedih jer...bosan dooo....penat la nangis jer...aku nak gelak2...happy2...mcm xder masalah yg dihadapi....tp bila masalah dtg dari semua angle hidup aku, aku jd sgt lemah...so bila dah luahkan walaupun sebenarnya x ler settle masalah aku cuma beban kat otak jd ringan...tue yg aku suka tue...aku suka sgt2...aku rasa aku senyum dan gelak dr dlm hati aku hari nie...dah lama aku x rasa camtue...bayangkan aku hanya mampu ketawa from the surface but not inside...but today aku berjaya tersenyum dr dlm hati aku smp keluar...aku suka sgt....:)...I'm Happy...Thank you so much Hawa...u make me back to track...aku sayang sgt kat kamu temanku...lain kali kita pi wat diskusi kita lagi k...best sebab dah lama kita x wat camtue...kita kan org2 yg different from others...smp pemikiran pon lain dooo...hahahah....

Traffic Light

Last night, i went to Cineque Office in Mutiara Damansara to meet Abg Iqbal. This is the first time ever i watched Abg Iqbal short film "Traffic Light". Before this i only heard about the film from Abg Lan...Abg Mamat and Ajib only....they said that the film was nice and good. But what i can said here, the film was awesome man....cause i know how hard Abg Iqbal did while doing the shooting of this short film...the hassle that he need to go and with the outcome that i watched yesterday, it was tremendously awesome work from him...Congratulation to him for his wonderful work.

"Traffic Light" the movie for you to think about the reality life that people undergo in their life.When jealousy overcome yourself, you will have a lot of bad impression and thought in your mind...so be careful of this...The story of a man that don't have a trust of his wife....jeng..jeng..jeng...there's where the story begin....

Loneliness

Loneliness...
Why should we be afraid of this word..
Why should we have this in our dictionary..
Why should we be in loneliness...

Those question playing around on the box..
Feeling like looking at the big world and only you is there..
Alone with nobody around you...
Facing the reality of life all alone...

This feeling is killing you...
This feeling is making you hiding yourself from the world..
You feel so alone when you have no shoulder to cry...
You feel alone when you cannot share your joy and tears...

Loneliness is creating the story...
Negative thought is always in mind..
Affecting the walk of your life...
You can only see sadness and tears all along...

Aku dan sakit...

Tubuhku sejuk tak semena-mena...
Jantungku berdegup cepat...
Nafasku seperti tak keruan...
Otakku seperti tidak boleh berfikir...

Apa semua ini...
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Badanku seperti mengigil...
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Aku di awan biru..

Khamis lepas merupakan pengalaman pertamaku berada di awan biru...terasa begitu teruja terbang di awan...walaupun aku sebenarnya tidaklah 100% sihat lagi selepas baru sahaja pengsan di office kira2 2 hari sebelumnya...aku gagahkan jua diriku meneruskan trip aku ke Kota Kinabalu kerna begitu excited dan ingin rasa terbang di awan seperti burung yg bebas di angkasa...mmg begitulah yg aku rasa semasa berada di dlm flight hari itu...seperti burung yg terbang gembira di angkasa...melihat awan biru memberi semangat baru...