Sleep Problems and Disorder

I think I have my sleeping problems again...before i went to Iceland,the problem have been resolved. But now, after the Iceland trip, I was having a terrible sleeping disorder that effect my life so much...it's almost 1 weeks already that i don't have enough sleep. I can only sleep at around 3am and wake up several time within the sleeping time. I woke up around 6.30am to 7.00am. But i still feel so tired cause i don't have a very well sleeping time as i woke up almost every hour.Huhh...is such a tiring moment for me....need to wake up and go to work. I just make myself strong enough to complete the working time even though sometimes i was very sleepy and tired cause i don't have enough sleep and rest. I'm getting more restless and stress when i have several complicated issues that need to be done with my tired brain and also to think on how to make the screen functioning as requested. Owh..it's such a big problem for me now...should i take sleeping pills for this?

Everything is getting worst as I'm having so much problem with my condition right now....tired and restless. Last friday is the worst night ever as I couldn't sleep at all and what I can do is just crying and crying again to think about my miserable problem that I am facing now. I'm so stress up...so tired...feel sick...and unhealthy...added with several other problem that interfere too at this time, this can make me crazy i guess....at one time i feel like i couldn't cope with it anymore....i feel like dying....Oh God please help me on this... :(

Article that I read about sleep problems and disorder:
http://www.helpguide.org/life/sleep_disorders.htm

She went back home..

She went back home and leave me here....Oh...my best friend's Hawa went back to our home town Ipoh...:( .... Probably she's in her new office today....she's the one who i can trust and know all my good and bad stories...Oh...i really wish she can stay here in KL and be there with me...but she couldn't do that as her family needs her more than i am...We spent our time together last weekend...going round and round the city...i felt so sad with this...need to say goodbye to her....even though she's not that far only in Ipoh...but it's still far enough to go out and go for makan2 and jalan2 i guess...*sigh*...what ever it is...i wish Hawa to success in her career and becoming a successful businesswoman in future....don't forget about me to become your business partner k....take care my beloved buddy....love ya so much....I'm gonna miss u here.... (-_-)

Semalam

Semlm aku pulang terus ke rumah lepas keje...selalu aku mesti ada destinasi lain yg akan aku tujui...tp semlm tidak...kerna mata aku dah x leh nak bukak dah...mengantuk tahap dewa seperti aku kasi tau kat kawan2 aku..eh..tp sebelum smp umah pi amik baju kat laundry dulu..hehe...bahagia rasa baju aku semua dah basuh dgn jayanya...musim2 ujan nie anto dobi la apa agi..hehe...tp tue arr nak jadikan citer...ari ujan...smp jer kat umah aku nie kelam kabut nak tutup pintu keta...tetiba...gedebang!!! aduih...sakit giler kepala aku rasa....aku terhentak kepala aku kat pintu keta...sakit yg amat2...biul jap kepala aku...huhh....aku pon tahan jer ler sakit...masuk umah kat dlm bilik tengok kat cermin, darah dah mengalir kuar dr hentakkan td la tue...sakit sgt2...siap ada parut kat tepi muka aku nie...waaaa....dah ler x der org kat umah semlm...tinggal sowang2...cepat2 aku letak minyak...tp kepala aku tetap cam sengal2 smp ler sekarang nie...hopefully aku x ilang ingatan la kan...hahaha..ok...smbg keje dulu...

Setiap satu yg terjadi ada hikmahnya..

Ermm...setiap satu yg terjadi ada hikmahnya...aku terpanggil2 untuk memikirkan tentang statement ini....mungkin kerna sesuatu yg aku terbaca semlm...huhh....1987....lama sungguh tue kan....aku tersentuh dengan bahan bacaan yg aku terbaca tue....sungguh aku x sangka....sudah selama itu...sudah hampir umur aku....aku perlu mengkaji dan meneliti hikmah yg aku dpt dari situ...semoga aku dapat terus menerima reason2 tue kat dlm kotak fikiran aku dengan rasional...seperti kata temanku "thing happens for a reason sista!! :o)"

"well...that's why..the reason...a reason...few reason and a million of reason...everything is just a reason i guess...reasoning and reason again...trying to digest the reason by myself...so that i'm not making anymore reason to make a lot of reason...now i'm confused with all the reason...and the word of reason too...ermm...1987...huhh.."

Jadi sekarang aku perlu berfikir,menggeledah,mencari dan meneliti sehingga aku mendapat jawapan yg pasti...persoalan demi persoalan menempa??? wink wink...wink..wink....

Bunga...hehe

Aku menerima sedozen bunga ros merah hari nie...ermm....aku terkejut sgt2...sebab aku x tahu siapa penghantar bunga tersebut.Ermm....ada secret admire laks erk...hehe..byk kejutan yg aku terima minggu ini...otak aku masih ligat memikirkan siapa penghantar bunga tersebut...bermain teka-teki aku....aku tanya teman2 rapatku...dan masih tidak mendapat jawapan..walaupun berteka-teki tp aku tetap bahagia...ramai yg menyayangi aku rupanya...aku perlu membuka mata melihat mereka di sekeliling aku...heboh citer bunga nie kat ofis aku...haha...lawaks doo...semua teman2 sekerja ingin mengetahui siapakah penghantar misteri itu...aku sendiri pon xtau...Bila difikir-fikirkan, biar jer ler siapa penghantar bunga itu kerna die mungkin selesa begitu kan...aku hanya akan tunggu dan lihat sahaja jer...kalo die nak reveal diri die biarlah dgn rela kan...so just enjoy the flower dan membunga2 kan hati ini...aku suka...

Moment

The wind is blowing on it's own...
Letting the flow over the trees...
The air on the wind...
Make me feel like the wind is hugging me...

Feeling so relax..
Calming my heart and my soul...
Relaxing the mind...
Making the mind blowing and soothing...

Love this moment...
Love the wind so much...
Sharing the moment with me...
Happiness on my own...

Smiling is with me...
Happiness is on my side...
My heart and soul is together now...
Enjoy my life every seconds and minutes...

Lying make me sick...

Today i received 2 news...one good one and one bad one...the bad news is just spoiling my mood today....but at least i know the truth...just don't want to hide behind the closet...ermm...why need to lie to me....as i can accept any condition as long as not lying...no lying...no lying....no lying please...i hate liar....u all are suck....suck and suck...