Cicak and the geng...

I start this thread with a laugh...hahahaha....now i'm officially joining the group of cute animal club...haha...look at this notes from my friend from facebook...All my friends have their animal nickname that been given to each other for an easy recognition and for fun...la la la...

Starting with :
1) Abg Adeq - Beluncas
2) Acid(Bob) - Rabbit
3) Abg Kay - Burung Nuri
4) Abg Boy - Tenuk
5) Nipa - Tenggiling
6) Iza - Cicak
7) Kak Leena -Chekcibo
8) Tipah - Kodok

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/note.php?note_id=45246585975&ref=nf

Later i can become cicakwoman la...becoming a partner of cicakman...hahaha...watch out for the latest movie from your nearest cinema....cicakwoman vs cicakman....hahaha...is it so cute...:P

How you know that u are in love?

Today i have a lot of entry in this blog... maybe just do not know where to express my feeling...so this is the channel for me...hehe...such a total freak...i'm rather telling my stories here compare to other people that i didn't know very well....i think this wouldn't happen if hawa is around...hehe..my counselor...haha..

Here is my topic...how you know that u are in love?

It's an interesting topic to be explore right...hahah..suddenly i've just flash back all my love stories in my mind...

1. When u feel different feeling when u meet that guy or women. This feeling is unexplainable...u have that weird and fast heart beat i guess...hehe...i have that before...hehe...just do not know how to control it when it happen...hahaha
2. When u attracted with him/her not only because of his/her looks...but also his/her personality too.
   
3. When u feel like loosing something when u cannot see him/her. Seeing his/her face even a glace is just enough. This is because u will miss that face when it's not there.
4. When u miss that someone a lot while apart. Means when you cannot see each other u will miss him/her....one day feel like 100 days..haha...
5. When u feel happy when he/she is around u...the love make each other happy and shining all the glow from yourself.
6. When you have the joy and the laugh together.
   
7. When you have the tears and the sadness together too.
8. When you can share all your problems...your thought...your interest....your feeling and every part or your life with him/her.
9. When you feel comfortable talking and discussing about all topics.
10. When you trust him/her without no doubt.
11. When you feel the pain when that someone is in pain or sick. You just couldn't bare to see your love one suffering from any pain or sickness. You just want to be beside him/her when this happen, to make sure he/she recover faster.
12. When you know his/her mood from the looks that he/she have on the face and know how to cheer him/her up.
13. When you actually do not know what to talk about....but just love to talk with him/her. This speechless is one of the most romantic thing ever.Cause the silent actually showing that the love is too much until u just do not know how to describe it...haha..i've been through this before...looking at each other face and just enjoy the moment together without saying anything...
14. When it's too hard to tell him/her that actually u really love him/her so much. That's the true love ever....cause saying i love u is just a meaningful statement that need to be reserve to someone that really special for u...if u simply said it to everybody, then the value of saying it to the one that u really love is just nothing cause it's all the same with others.
15. When u keep on chasing him/her even you have so many hurdles to go through. Trying the best to attract him/her. You just don't bother what others are saying...u keep on doing what u think is good for u.
16. When you will do anything to just see him/her smiling and happy all the time.
17. When you can give and take for evey condition.
18. When you can tolerate with many condition.
19. When you can accept all the goods and the bad things in himself/herself.Accepting he/she as what they are.
20. When you keep on exploring and trying to understand him/her very well. This is the way for u to get close to him/her.
    
21. When you know his/her interest and what he/she likes and dislike.
22. When every moment with him/her is still fresh in your mind.You like recording everything in your little black box and you can smile alone when u think about it...hehe
23. The last but not least...is when u think about him/her most of the time...how he's/she's feel...what he's/she's doing...is he/she enjoying himself/herself....u just keep on thinking...thinking...and thinking about him/her.....u have his/her face image inside your mind all the time...u just want to be with him/her....no other man/woman...one and only....hehe...

Well...that's some of the clue to know whether you are in love...hehe...i'm not that expert...but this is some of the thing that i have gone through...hahah..i love to be in love...but now i need to take a break...cause loving someone is a pleasure at one time....and it's also a suffer when u are facing problem with it. But if you are in love, most of the time...u have happy moment and just enjoy the feeling...cause your love one will always be there for you in any condition. Even you are stress up...or down, a magic word or a hug from your love one will calm you. I just miss that moment so much...cause don't have anybody that can calm me down...hehehe...I should find new love now...hahah..new registration for new love application....hehe...

Some update: falling in love is a wonderful feeling but u cannot force yourself to be in love with someone that u don't love...cause i've experienced this too...try to love someone that i actually don't love...i mean i don't have that clue as above...just don't want to be alone i guess...or just want to be with someone and share my feeling but actually i don't really have the deep feeling of him in me...i just notice about it when i broke up, i just don't feel anything much..just miss his sms and calls only i guess....i don't really miss him...but his a nice guy...i've make up my mind and left him...cause i cannot lie to myself forever i tell myself i need to leave him before it's getting worst and let him fall in love with me that deep while i don't feel anything...i don't want my sympathy to be part of our relationship...cause love and sympathy is 2 different feeling that need to be separate...so...u must make up your mind...whether u really love him/her or it just the sympathy to stay with him/her and don't want to hurt his/her feeling by letting him/her go. Only u yourself know how's your feeling....so make a good decision...finding your true love from the eyes of your love one....to your heart...and to your soul....if u have all this combination, don't let him/her go...cause this is the one for u....soulmate searching....my next topic to be blog in...haha...

Java

I'm so disappointed at the moment...huhh...how can i think in java codes...my head is blank of this programming codes...i just do not know how to proceed or think of what to do next ...someone promise me to teach me....but i don't know when this will happen cause of other busy schedule that person have...so asking question to others would disturb their job...well...i'm torn between all the hurdles...i don't know when they are free and when they are busy....so sometimes i've been thinking...am i suitable for this job or not...should i find other opportunity or should i just proceed with this? i need to learn all by myself...sometimes this would be so stressful....cause i don't know it...i hate this at the moment...huhhh....i should learn this fast...owhhhh...

Materialistic girl...

I need to start this thread with a big laugh...hahahhahaha...yo...when I was on the way to office today, i was listening to hitz.fm and they have this special segment for christmas...they try to partner up solo person with someone so that they won't be celebrating christmas alone...hehe...so cute right...so there are a pair of man and woman involve in this conversation...what they need to to do is describing about themselves in 30 seconds...so what really attract me is when one girl is describing her as a hot girl...so sexy...she claim people told her that she's beautiful have nice smile and so on...so this man need to choose whether to stay alone with a hamster or choose to go out and celebrate christmas with this hot sexy girl...hahah...u know what this man answer he prefer to stay alone with a hamster rather than go out with this girl..he said that this girl must be a materialistic girl based on how she describe herself...hahaha...he said...if a woman claim herself that she's hot and sexy chick, she would be a materialistic girl....hahhahahha...because a woman that know she's hot and beautiful is always like that...that girl was so mad of this guy...she called him a looser...hahah...so funny la...the date is not able to be done cause of this...owh...materialistic girl...that the only issue that make this unsuccessful....hahahah...

Is marijuana really bad for me?

I'm thinking of this...is it really bad for me? need to search on this...someone say it is not bad...

"Marijuana is the safest drug out there including prescription. There is not a recorded death in history caused from marijuana.I just wanna get high and be happy. You see marijuana hasn't wrecked my life but this wrongful charge has. Marijuana, in its natural state is the most therapeutic medicines known to man. I know this, thousands of doctors know this and even many politicians know this, but it is still illegal."

http://www.geocities.com/medicalmarijuana2003/

should i take this to be happy???marijuana....wow...trying new things.....

Change..

I'm thinking of something serious and a big change now...i'm so confuse should i or shouldn't i...erm..thinking about this day by day....i should make this change truly with my heart and soul....am i ready for that? still another question marks puzzling inside my head...i'm so confuse...accepting or rejecting it? accepting meaning i'm changing my whole life...sooner or later i need to change also...now it's the matter of time...am i ready for this? Ahhh...just couldn't make up my mind now...so complicated...so difficult....so many thing to think...May Allah give me the Bless of everything...puzzle...puzzling...and puzzling again....think...and think...and think...and make the decision...Ohh....

I have no APPETIDE

Today..i feel so hungry...but i couldn't eat...i've bought one burger..but cannot finish it up...last week i have very high appetide...and now no appetide...is this the process of eliminating the poison or what...i'm just not sure...i will try to eat no matter what so that i won't get sick...think positive...i can do this...gambatte!!!

I'm reborn...

I'm reborn today....yehaaaa!!! i'm slowly get rid all the poison that i have for the past 2-3 years back...i'm trying my best so that the poison will go away....far away from my life...i'm deleting one thing at a time...no more wasting time for all this creepy thing....i thought i've get rid it before...actually no...still in my mind and heart...so today i declare to get rid it from my heart...my mind and my soul...i want myself back...i want my heart back...i want everything back...i want myself that have been lost during that time...i want me...and only me...that crazy girl which have a lot of dreams and a lot of thing that still stuck cause of this poison....hehe...I'm praying to God for all the success...:)

Bila aku menyedarinya...

semlm aku menyedari sesuatu...
sesuatu yg amat sukar dirungkai...
aku mahukan kebahagiaan itu...
namun aku begitu gentar...

aku mengimbas kembali...
nostalgia indah itu...
aku terkenang saat-saat itu...
aku tersenyum sendiri...

memori itu masih segar dlm kotak fikiranku...
segalanya direstui semua...
namun betulkah keputusanku ini...
itu aku masih keliru...

aku perlu nekad dgn yg ini...
aku mesti pasti dgn yg ini...
aku perlu yakin pada yg ini...
aku perlu memberi peluang ini...

moga aku betul kali ini..
moga aku teruskan dgn jaya..
moga aku terus-terusan tersenyum...
moga aku bisa peroleh kebahagiaan itu...

:)

I want Food...

Mango Desert

Sun Flower Pie Tie

Special ABC

Prawn Mee

Iced Passion Jumbo - top view

Iced Passion Jumbo - side view

Owh...i think i'm starving now...I'm thinking of food and food again. I didn't went for lunch just now cause I'm busy decorating the Christmas tree. And now the Christmas tree is fully decorated and have beautiful decoration on it i guess so...heheh...well...i'm not blogging about the christmas tree...but about food...huhh...i'm hungry...i wish i can go to memory corner and have iced passion jumbo with prawn mee...wow..so nice to have that....nyum2...some of food picture to share with u all...hehe...enjoy...

The field..

I can see wide field for me...
I can see that flag waving at me..
I can see that signal from that far...
The wind is helping me..

That field is mine...
I'm going towards it...
I'm trying to be on it...
I keep on moving near it...

Just a matter of time to determine it..
Just a matter of luck to grab it..
Just a matter of fate to be with it..
Only God knows how my field will look like..

I'm waiting for the time..
I'm putting my effort towards it..
I'm grabbing all the opportunity that i have..
To see the glowing success...

Sleep Problems and Disorder

I think I have my sleeping problems again...before i went to Iceland,the problem have been resolved. But now, after the Iceland trip, I was having a terrible sleeping disorder that effect my life so much...it's almost 1 weeks already that i don't have enough sleep. I can only sleep at around 3am and wake up several time within the sleeping time. I woke up around 6.30am to 7.00am. But i still feel so tired cause i don't have a very well sleeping time as i woke up almost every hour.Huhh...is such a tiring moment for me....need to wake up and go to work. I just make myself strong enough to complete the working time even though sometimes i was very sleepy and tired cause i don't have enough sleep and rest. I'm getting more restless and stress when i have several complicated issues that need to be done with my tired brain and also to think on how to make the screen functioning as requested. Owh..it's such a big problem for me now...should i take sleeping pills for this?

Everything is getting worst as I'm having so much problem with my condition right now....tired and restless. Last friday is the worst night ever as I couldn't sleep at all and what I can do is just crying and crying again to think about my miserable problem that I am facing now. I'm so stress up...so tired...feel sick...and unhealthy...added with several other problem that interfere too at this time, this can make me crazy i guess....at one time i feel like i couldn't cope with it anymore....i feel like dying....Oh God please help me on this... :(

Article that I read about sleep problems and disorder:
http://www.helpguide.org/life/sleep_disorders.htm

She went back home..

She went back home and leave me here....Oh...my best friend's Hawa went back to our home town Ipoh...:( .... Probably she's in her new office today....she's the one who i can trust and know all my good and bad stories...Oh...i really wish she can stay here in KL and be there with me...but she couldn't do that as her family needs her more than i am...We spent our time together last weekend...going round and round the city...i felt so sad with this...need to say goodbye to her....even though she's not that far only in Ipoh...but it's still far enough to go out and go for makan2 and jalan2 i guess...*sigh*...what ever it is...i wish Hawa to success in her career and becoming a successful businesswoman in future....don't forget about me to become your business partner k....take care my beloved buddy....love ya so much....I'm gonna miss u here.... (-_-)